"Death is no more than passing from one room into another. But there's a difference for me, you know. Because in that other room I shall be able to see." (Hellen Keller)
As the title says, I'm in grief. My grandmother died these days. She had lung cancer. Anyway, everybody was expecting this, but...Meh. I'm not able to write very much now, because...You know. Sucky feelings, and...Grrrrr. I so hate this stupid sensation. If a week ago I had no fear of death, now I do. And very bad. FML big time once again, for me.
It's 10:24 P.M, but I don't want to go to sleep. I'm scared like shit. And my hands are very cold, too. Tonight, I think I'm going to sleep with my mom.
It's like a deja-vu, this reminds me when my grandfather passed away (I was 12), and I was so shocked that I started smoking like turkish people. Really now, I don't wish you to experience this kind of mixed sensations. Trust me, it sucks.
But, I really have to go. Tomorrow I must go to college. Why me ? :-(
Now, I feel like going outside and rage "FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUU".
Can someone tell me how the hell can I calm down ? I tried various methods, all of them are fail for me.
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hey, i like your blog, it's fun and interesting to read at the same time. I'm also a 1st year student at Titu M, but it's easier for me as i'm only following one college, so i can't find myself in the words you write when you talk about not having enough time cuz u're learning at 2 colleges.
ReplyDeletenot many girls in this big fcking city tend to think how you do, i read all your posts on this blog and i've gotten myself a pretty good oppinion about you, i would like us to have a cup of coffe and a good talk, when you got time. :)
i think i was a little insensitive, sorry for your loss,i hope you're better.
ReplyDeletehope you'll write something new soon, weird to say this but when i visit your blog and i see nothing it makes me feel sad for a moment. hope to hear from you soon
cmon, come back :P
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry to hear about your loss and I hope you got over it by now.
ReplyDeleteI haven't written anything yet because there is nothing I (a total stranger to you) could have done to make this any better or easier for you.
Now I posted to let you know that, in my opinion, keeping your blog updated might relieve you of some of the stress and tensions. It might also be useful because it could detach you from the daily pressure and harsh reality of life.
Best regards!